Inspiration needed.

As a good friend of mine pointed out today, it is a shame I decided to start blogging so late into my placement, as I am not back on placement until late December/ January, I may struggle on what to blog about.
I feel slightly worried now, I love my blog and so want it to carry on, so I am going to go away tonight and think and draft about what I am going to blog and in what order, I have loads of stories and ideas but don’t want it to come out all mix and match.

So I will go and sit and research this now 🙂 thanks mike!

Hopefully blog tomorrow, m xoxo

P.s thank you to everyone who reads my blog daily!


Things that make you happy.

I was looking out of the car window this afternoon, (from a good days shopping trip) and I started thinking about happiness. Whether the same things make us happy or not, and all the kind of variables of happiness.
So I have decided to some up what makes me happy in 10 points.

* Laughing
* Talking & Gossiping 🙂
* Buying beautiful things
* Making other people happy, i.e giving people presents
* Animals
* Feeling free and untroubled
* Holidays & Beaches
* Cuddles
* Scenery and nice weather
* & this video >>

It is pure genius!
I reckon my level of happiness right now is pretty happy 🙂

Please leave a comment about what makes you happy in 10 points … or more, & I will reblog the similarities or differences another day.

Sorry for the short post guys, my b is making me dinner, and it smells amazing.

Blog tomorrow, love M xoxo

Photo challenge


My hewy lewy. 🙂 no explanation needed.

M xoxo

Highs and lows of a student nurse.

16th of august. 23:40

Part two.

Over the past year I have been lucky enough to meet hundreds of patients, and I have loads of memorable and heart warming memories that will stay with me forever, although I also have a lot of upsetting and downright heart breaking memories that will stay with me, however much I wish I could forget them.
Obviously it is these not so nice memories that help us to grow as a person and as a student nurse, and to help us develop the much needed emotional and communicational skills that we will need once we are let loose as qualifies staff nurses. I definitely still have along way to go in this department, I tend to still get too emotionally attached to my patients and tend to act as if they are a member of my own family, ( I do not know if this is a good thing or not.) I know that I will see a lot of patients die over the next couple of years, but I just can not see myself getting used it, and just accepting it as normality.
However other staff members and past mentors have told me that I will get better at dealing with this sort of thing and that I would not be human if I did not find somethings upsetting, after all it is part of our job to make a patients last few hours as comfortable as possible, but this does not mean that we can not also take time to reflect and grieve. Try to treasure every minute with a patient and feel honoured you are part of their care.

Most treasured moment.

One of my favourite memories is of an elderly patient I met on one of my placements, she was a fun loving lady from newcastle and was one of the funniest (& crudest may I add!) people I have ever met. She was so full of life, always cracking jokes with the staff and making sexual innuendoes to the rather embarrassed F1’s (first year doctors.) I loved looking after her, she made me feel at ease and always kept me entertained! She was honest and would tell me how it was! (like calling me a “bonny lass” when I asked her if she thought I should go on a diet!)
She seemed so strong to me like nothing in the world would get her down and that she could fight anything or anyone, (including the rather rude reg of whom she was under!)
I really did admire this lady, she had such gumption, I think they should make a film out of her life story one day! However some of it may be x rated! HaHa.

I spent nearly all of my shifts with this lady (talking and laughing…. well it is better than emptying catheters lets be honest!) & I went to every scan, biopsy, and test with her and held her hand (even though she SO did not need it as she kept telling me! She was made of tough stuff!)
Sometimes I wonder if it was all a front and she was secretly petrified inside but when you looked in her eyes the determination was so powerful that I completely believed her.

Even when the biopsy came back as positive to lung cancer, she said to me “think positive lass, ill be alright me! I aint just about to keel over!” I think maybe I was more upset than she was!
She remained positive and happy and even when her body reacted badly to a unit of blood she just smiled and whispered to me, “hey! I think this blood used to belong to a druggie, I feel rate of me head me!” (See what I mean, never miffed by anything!)
I heard so much about her family that lived in australia that when I met them I felt like I knew them already. I was glad she had her family with her as I was going to be leaving that ward soon and I would have hated her to be alone.

On my last day I noticed on the hand over sheet that she was now on the LCP programme (Liverpool Care Programme – That patients at the end of stages of a terminal illness are placed on when they are seen to have less than three weeks to live.)
I was so shocked I never thought it would get to this! Well.. not so soon anyway. When I went to say goodbye for the last time I managed to hold it together I wished her well and hugged her, and her daughter.

The lady held my hand and thanked me for everything and told me she was really going to miss me and that I would make a great nurse, I thanked her, held back my tears and told her to be strong and to think positive, she replied with “aye! As always lass!”
I walked off of the ward that evening with mixed emotions I felt proud and happy that I had really played a big part of her care and that I could really see that she was thankful, but I also felt devastated and angry at how unfair it was that people had to die all the time. I waited till I was off the ward to cry though, to save the embarrassment. Haha.

I never got to know what happened to that lady, but wherever she is I am sure she is causing mischief and causing a lot of trouble! I know she will be okay.


I learnt a lot from this experience, and I am so grateful I could be apart of her treatment.
Yes i know that portfolio work is boring but i really did find that reflecting on this situation has helped me deal with it properly and allow me to understand the importance of “care.”
Maybe that is why we have to do it, and it isn’t just to bore us to tears!


I think that is enough for one night! I will blog tomorrow evening, with the top 10 best and worse points of being a student nurse!! That should cheer me up!

Night all…. M xoxo

p.s I would love to hear your most treasured moments too!